For You, who let me experience that love in freedom is possible!
I was incredibly excited that morning, and yet, or perhaps because of that, I reminded myself to slow down. It made no difference; I wouldn’t be with you any sooner if I hurried now. And there was this melody in my head that had been with me since last night but was still so vague that I couldn’t place it. This melody that accompanied me through last night, into this new day, it had something to do with you, but which one could it be?
I arrived in Ravenna in the morning. First of all, I looked for a room with a sea view. I adjusted myself carefully. Yes, I admit it, I was full of expectation and at the same time free of fear, full of expectation that you would come to me today, and yet I did not fearfully think about what would happen if this, my expectation, were not fulfilled, always with me of this melody in my head. No, it wasn’t even a melody, just a few, few bars, and yet they seemed so familiar, as if I had never heard anything else, as if I had never been captivated by a melody more. But what was it?
I prepared everything carefully for your coming, as if I wanted to give you a place where you could feel at home, and in carrying out this activity I realized that it was actually not the place I was preparing , but myself, in order to be able to be the space of your arrival, space in which you should feel welcome, in which you would find home and refuge. And that’s exactly why there was an expectation of an unclouded, fearless one, because no matter whether you came today, tomorrow or any other day, this place would exist for you as long as I would exist. Finally, here at this last stop on my, our journey, I was ready to let go to no longer allow myself to be seduced by precisely set, determinate expectations, ready to let go, to let my love for you grow in freedom, ready to release you into your decision, whatever it would look like.
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