Life is too short for boring stories

„I had a dream last night, but I’m not sure if it was a dream.“

“How can you not be sure if it was a dream? You slept and experienced something that didn’t actually happen. That is probably a dream.“

„How should I know if I’m sleeping when I’m sleeping. There is something soulless and frightening about sleeping. You are there, you experience things, and yet you don’t know whether you are really there or not. No, it would be more correct to say, I’m in, I experience things, and yet I don’t know whether I’m really there or not.“

„But I suppose you wanted to tell me about the dream?“

“No, I didn’t want that! What makes you think that?“

“Because if someone starts with the words, I had a dream last night, then that’s kind of the introduction to the story of the dream, like a novella. How many people tell novellas without knowing it.“

“Novella or essay or short story. What does that do? It’s always the same as you call it.“

„Let a literary scholar hear that.“

„I will, on occasion. But just because someone or someone or you do it that way doesn’t mean that I wanted it that way. Where’s the surprise in life? Besides, I said more. I said. I had a dream last night but I’m not sure if it was a dream. That clearly shows that I don’t want to tell the dream, because otherwise I would have said: something happened in my dream or something like that. But I said I wasn’t sure if it was a dream.“

“So, you literally said that? What a memory you have!“

„It has nothing to do with memory, only with the fact that I not only listen to you, but also to me.“

“No, I don’t go into that much effort. Nobody told me that I had to listen to myself. It is always said that it is an act of politeness to listen to your dialogue partner, but never, really never has anyone told me that it is proper to listen to yourself.“

“As if that didn’t go without saying. Understand yourself – not belong yourself. So, it belongs, of course. So, what does it have to do with me? Why do I let myself be told what is right and wrong? It’s proper. It is. It is not proper not to listen. Not listening belongs to not listening to oneself, not me. So, if you listen to me, you should do it because you want to, and not because it ought to be, because listening belongs to it and not to you. You should listen to yourself because it facilitates the flow of speech. So, I had a dream last night but it didn’t feel like a dream. What is the right question now?“

„Why weren’t you sure if it was a dream?“

„Perfect. You learn quickly. It wasn’t like a dream because it was so real, so close, and so alive. I breathed in it. I smelled the autumn leaves. I felt the cold and wet in my feet. It was like walking down the path to the vineyards, you know the one behind the house. First it goes up a bit and then down again. The vines were cleared away. The way it looks right now. Everything dead and rotten. Nature eats itself up in autumn, gathers new strength in winter and then, in spring, revitalizes the space that was gained by the dying. That’s how it is. It was near and everything was there. Only the grapes were harvested. Except for one, a shriveled one. Overlooked and forgotten. She stubbornly hung there as if she were convinced that she would be harvested after all. ‚My farmer is still fetching me. Quite sure’, she said to me.“

„It is not proper to speak to dried grapes if they are so conceited not to call themselves raisins.“

“It’s not my own and it’s not mine. So, I talk to the shriveled bunch of grapes, whatever it is called, and think that that’s actually me. „

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